As I sit at my desk today, reflecting the past two years who would have thought that I would have come this far? Survived this far, and becoming a woman of God again.  Becoming fully whole again – which is … Continue reading →

Some of you may have noticed the silence for a short while from butterflies released. I didn’t post nearly as many post as I would do normally.  I just didn’t have the energy to write… or maybe I just needed … Continue reading →

I havent written much lately. I will write soon again. Just I feel broken and like I have nothing to share with the world… So till then Goodbye writing world for a wee while. Perhaps it’s a massive writer block???

Don’t you see the struggle in my eyes? The constant battle within me Falling, falling, falling Into deep murky water I drown I scream Chest constricts The pain of being separated The feeling of being dizzy The room spinning out … Continue reading →

Baby Loss and Infant loss this month.  But this week it’s a BIG focus around the world. For those who have lost children please don’t make the same mistake as I have by not mentioning my precious children Micheline, Elouise … Continue reading →

Dry words. Lately I haven’t really known what to write, what to say. It is as if my words have run dry. Like I have reached a stumbling block, a road block in my life. Neither moving forward or moving … Continue reading →

I moved this weekend to a new place. The landlady has a dog.  A dog can be your best friend.  This dog seems to sense my mood. I feel lost and broken.  A nobody. Battling depression.  Battling waves of depression. … Continue reading →

I have noticed an increase in the level of migraines I have been getting.  The previous week I was off work for 9 days (holiday).  No headaches. No migraines. I come back to work this week and the pain, the … Continue reading →

Based on Jules Riding’s song: Broken heart.   Lord I bring You my broken heart Lord I give You my aching heart Feel like I am Falling, falling apart Drowning, drowning into this Quagmire of endless sin Slaved to sin … Continue reading →