Some of you may have noticed the silence for a short while from butterflies released. I didn’t post nearly as many post as I would do normally.  I just didn’t have the energy to write… or maybe I just needed … Continue reading →

I havent written much lately. I will write soon again. Just I feel broken and like I have nothing to share with the world… So till then Goodbye writing world for a wee while. Perhaps it’s a massive writer block???

Don’t you see the struggle in my eyes? The constant battle within me Falling, falling, falling Into deep murky water I drown I scream Chest constricts The pain of being separated The feeling of being dizzy The room spinning out … Continue reading →

Baby Loss and Infant loss this month.  But this week it’s a BIG focus around the world. For those who have lost children please don’t make the same mistake as I have by not mentioning my precious children Micheline, Elouise … Continue reading →

Dry words. Lately I haven’t really known what to write, what to say. It is as if my words have run dry. Like I have reached a stumbling block, a road block in my life. Neither moving forward or moving … Continue reading →

I moved this weekend to a new place. The landlady has a dog.  A dog can be your best friend.  This dog seems to sense my mood. I feel lost and broken.  A nobody. Battling depression.  Battling waves of depression. … Continue reading →

I have noticed an increase in the level of migraines I have been getting.  The previous week I was off work for 9 days (holiday).  No headaches. No migraines. I come back to work this week and the pain, the … Continue reading →

Based on Jules Riding’s song: Broken heart.   Lord I bring You my broken heart Lord I give You my aching heart Feel like I am Falling, falling apart Drowning, drowning into this Quagmire of endless sin Slaved to sin … Continue reading →

James 1.17  Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows. Last week has come and gone, fluttered by.  Normally holidays for me go quickly, … Continue reading →