Dear Sebastian, It’s been five years almost to the last moments I felt you move. I can’t remember at what stage you last moved. Was it late evening on the 25th of September 2014 or in the early hours of … Continue reading →

It’s another year almost since your untimely death and I find myself screaming in my pillow. Screaming angry tears of regret. I wish to the heavens that you did not have to die Sebastian. I miss you so unbelievably much … Continue reading →

I’m recovering from a severe migraine attack. This last one lasted 48 hours in total. I remember going to work, vaguely remember that my colleague took me home. I had a blinding headache. I should not have dragged myself to … Continue reading →

Last week Thursday I came full circle on the Isle of Wight. I’ve lived here for a year now plus a few days. I didn’t think I was going to last on the island. I thought I’d leave. I thought … Continue reading →

Dear Mommy, I know how hard life has been for you in the last year, and how hard you’ve tried to fight through each battle, and through each storm. Believe it or not you’re doing better than you think you … Continue reading →

Dear Sebastian, I often feel like I’ve got to write to you as if you’re an almost 5-year old. But someone recently told me that I don’t have to write to you like this. That I can write to you … Continue reading →

Dear Sebby, It has been a long while since I last wrote to you. I miss you and I love you more than you will ever know.  Lately, I’ve been thinking about you more than I normally would. More than … Continue reading →