Hurting again, tears flowing endlessly down like a cascading waterfall Wondering when it will all end?  Will it get any easier? The pain? The hurt?  The rejected feeling? The ignored feeling? How can I move past my old ways and … Continue reading →

Colossians 2.6-7 So then, just as you received Christ Jesus as Lord, continue to live your lives in him, rooted and built up in him, strengthened in faith as you were taught, and overflowing with thanksgiving. Basis of gratitude. To … Continue reading →

I closed my eyes and i saw you running free like a bird. I wonder when this pain will disappear amongst the flowers of the earth. The pain is like a thorn in my heart. It keeps crushing and crushing … Continue reading →

Hebrews 11.1 Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see. People often say they take a leap of faith by believing in something that we do not see. But I … Continue reading →

Before Sebastian-David died, I read the Bible perhaps two or three times per week. Afterwards, I started reading the Bible daily, particularly when I started the second year of my grief journey. I also started doing Bible studies to deal … Continue reading →

based on the song Safe in the Arms of Jesus by Jules Riding Jesus is my savior His perfect love drives out fear (1 John 4.18) He binds up my broken wounds (Psalm 147.3) Glues my vessel whole Carries me when I … Continue reading →

When all the world is shadowed by pressing dusk I watch the crashing waves, scattering waves, broken waves Wrap itself around my broken vessel Captured into a timeless time of uncertainty Broken wounds, defenseless lesions of hurt Gorges of an … Continue reading →

Today i feel like a broken woman.. All day i have had flashes of my failures over the years. But mainly failure to keep my son safe in the womb.. Failure at being a good mama for my son…  Yet … Continue reading →

My dearest little Sebby, Mummy had her driving exam today, but unfortunately she didn’t even get through the first round.  I failed on the theory by 1 point, and will have to re-do either in two weeks time or in … Continue reading →