How do you rise above the lies of the enemy? Your own worst enemy sometimes is believing the thoughts that are in your head which aren’t even true.  Thoughts such as:

You are a failure
No-one likes you
You are not beautiful
You are such a failure
Failure Failure Failure
No one cares about you
You are a no-body
You are ugly

… and the list goes on and on.  The constant mantra in your head with all these thoughts. You drown in this constant whirlpool of negativity.  It is simply a no-go area. But once you are in it.  It is hard to get out.  To rise above it.  To move past it.

The only way to fight it is to make sure that you are strongly rooted in your faith, and to have your little book of encouraging bible verses ready and to read the truths over and over again, replace the lies with the truth. The only way I see that you can fight against the lies of the enemy is by replacing it with simple truths such as:

You are a success
People like you
You are a beautiful woman of God
You are a successful woman
Successful, Successful, Successful
People do care about you
You are God’s daughter
You are beautiful

Replace them with the truths, but also back them up with bible verses from the bible.  Verses that encourage you, verses that speak to your broken soul.

Matthew 11.28 – Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.

Psalm 23.3 – He restores my soul. He guides me in the paths of righteousness for his name’s sake.

Psalm 147.3 – He heals the broken-hearted, and binds up their wounds. 

1 Peter 5.7 – Give all your worries and cares to the Lord, for He cares about you. 

Psalm 55.22 Cast your cares on the Lord and He will sustain you; He will never let the righteous be shaken.

This week has been particularly very trying for me.  It all started on Sunday evening when I went to sleep and woke up with the worst nightmare in the entire world.  It was a demonic dream.  Chasing me trying to kill me.  Resulting in a relatively bad week – with a mixed bag of emotions. Being completely broken and utterly hopeless.

Then – handing in my resignation, and starting the phase out phase at work.  With resignation always comes new beginnings, and knowing that the Lord has your life in the palm of His hands is a comforting thought in itself.  On the flip side of resignation you wonder – did I make the right decision?  Am I doing God’s will?  Or am I doing my will?  Uncertainty is like a thief.  It steals your joy and peace and instead fear comes in its place. So – if everything was already thrown off balance by having a demonic dream, that gripped your very soul, and tried to tear you away from God, than you feel like there is no-one there to fight your corner.  You are alone.  And it feels like no-one sees your pain. Everyone is too self-absorbed in their own daily battles.

I am struggling this week on all levels, emotionally, physically, spiritually.  I feel like I am fighting this good fight on my own, and I feel like I am falling apart.  But I know I am not, because when I bring the Lord my broken heart, He will heal me.

Resulting to the simple fact: The Cross – is the only place where we can go, where the Lord will heal our broken spirits and restore us to full health.  I have spent more time this week with the Lord to try and get back to that place of peace.  I decided and I will not let the devil try and snatch away what I have worked so hard towards. Simply by pinning your burdens one by one on the cross, you will be free.  

1 John 4.9 – This is how God showed his love among us: He sent his one and only Son into the world that we might live through him.

For me writing and talking to God is the only way out of this deep dark pit that I find myself in.  I am at least able to unburden myself at the cross, by placing all my inadequacy at the foot of the cross and asking for healing, for forgiveness.  To be loved.  To be saved from these wretched emotions that plague my very soul. 

The devil uses moments like these to cause rifts between friends, family, whoever you speak to on a regular basis, who you are close to.   Tries to push each other away.  And then you feel like you are completely alone in fighting this – the enemy of your soul.  But we mustn’t let the devil win.  And cause that rift between each other.  Because it could do more harm than good.

My life is like a broken vessel, sometimes more water of negativity comes in consuming me and making everything 10x harder, while other times I am at a peak in my life, where things seem to be going really well and I feel like I got the Lord on my side.

I know the Lord is with me all the time.  Every day is a steep learning curve for me.  Trial after trial. But without trials how can we draw close to God?  How can we learn to trust the Lord to see us through?

My challenge for this week is to not let the enemy of my soul tell me lies, but to overcome it with the simple truths from the bible.  I shouldn’t feel like a failure just because i messed up.  The reality is we all make mistakes, we are sinners, but the Lord forgives us 77 x 7 and he will see us through whatever challenge/difficulty we are facing.  All we have to do is let Him into our hearts.

Will you let the Lord in?