What happens When the memories crash and floodgates open? Anxiety rises. He’s lurking behind the shadows Of every nightmare, of ever haunted memory Of every moment in my day He seems to know how to control me Knows how to … Continue reading →

Reader, I started running again.  The flesh doesn’t want to run, the spirit is willing. Today was my second run of the week. My aim is to build up to 4 times a week. Wonder where I will fit all … Continue reading →

The migraine storm is over. It has passed on.  Thank God.  I don’t know how.  It was a slow build up into the migraine storm. Extreme tiredness.   Nausea all week.  Headaches on and off before the hurricane wrecks havoc in … Continue reading →

Dear Mr B, I don’t tend to write open letters especially to you, and especially with such a vulnerable topic. But I have been challenged to write something down. Perhaps something of a closure? Or the beginning of the end … Continue reading →

As I stand under the shower, I let the hot rain drop onto my figure, pounding down hard, fast, as I stand, and lapse into deep thought once again. A trance has come over me as the water echoes, lurches … Continue reading →

I wrote this piece 11 years ago when I was a university student in Cardiff.  I unearthed it recently or rather a good university friend of mine found it and had sent it to me via email.  I don’t really … Continue reading →

On a bad day doubt comes in and weasels its way into me And I question my mere existence before God What is the point in all of this if only ridicule and loneliness come before me When isolation stretches … Continue reading →

Home alone. Cheesy topic right? Well, for the first time in my life I am renting a little place on my own by the grace of God. That belongs to no-one but me. I can scarcely believe it now.  It … Continue reading →

Dear Sebby, Missing you my dear boy. I know I haven’t written to you  yet this year.  It’s been a hectic few weeks with a lot of changes.  More importantly,  we made it into 2019 unscathed. I find that time … Continue reading →

I woke up feeling quite vulnerable this morning with dreams washing over me.  I’ve had a challenging time since June last year and it fluctuates. Some days are easier to cope with than others. Some are painfully hard, painfully obvious … Continue reading →