Dry words. Lately I haven’t really known what to write, what to say. It is as if my words have run dry. Like I have reached a stumbling block, a road block in my life. Neither moving forward or moving … Continue reading
Empty Void of Words
Category Archives: death
A Wall of Broken Vessels
I moved this weekend to a new place. The landlady has a dog. A dog can be your best friend. This dog seems to sense my mood. I feel lost and broken. A nobody. Battling depression. Battling waves of depression. … Continue reading
Constricting Pain Once More
I have noticed an increase in the level of migraines I have been getting. The previous week I was off work for 9 days (holiday). No headaches. No migraines. I come back to work this week and the pain, the … Continue reading
Panic’s Grip
Panic is like a hurricane wreaking havoc amongst your carefully laid out emotions that are neatly placed into compartments. When panic occurs all sense of normality leaves and your emotions are haplessly strewn across the lawn of your brain as … Continue reading
Broken Heart
Based on Jules Riding’s song: Broken heart. Lord I bring You my broken heart Lord I give You my aching heart Feel like I am Falling, falling apart Drowning, drowning into this Quagmire of endless sin Slaved to sin … Continue reading
God’s Blessing
James 1.17 Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows. Last week has come and gone, fluttered by. Normally holidays for me go quickly, … Continue reading
I am Sorry
I am sorry for getting upset I am sorry for feeling rejected I am sorry for feeling human And having expectations I am sorry for being negative I am sorry for not being patient I am sorry for being … Continue reading
Happy 2nd Birthday, Sebby
My Dearest Sebby, Just thinking on the eve before your birthday… Thinking of what it would have been like to have you here toddling around. You would have been two years old. A strapping little boy. My heart breaks just … Continue reading
Birthday Poem to Sebby
happy birthday to my baby boy. He would have been two today!!! Today It is 1.05 pm, two years since your birth and death but it seems as if it only happened hours ago Not a nightmare anymore I … Continue reading
Hard Days
The last two days have been strangely difficult. Perhaps if I had gone somewhere which was the original plan it would have been easier. But for some reason I decided I will stay and not go anywhere. I haven’t been … Continue reading
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