Birthday Poem to Sebby

happy birthday to my baby boy. He would have been two today!!! 
 
Today
It is 1.05 pm, two years
since your birth and death
but it seems as if it only
happened hours ago
Not a nightmare anymore
I find myself wondering
what it would have been like
to be loved unconditionally by you
losing you my child may have
been the hardest thing I have endured
but your death has taught me so much
In the face of tragedy:
not to take short cuts
but to take the path that God
places before us
I learn about:
Love
Encouragement
Healing
Support
and much more
I learn about the strength of God
and his amazing grace
upon my life
Your death dear child may have
been a tragedy but
the Lord has birthed
something beautiful out of it
from the moment
of your miraculous existence
inside me
I loved you instantly
I loved you intensely
I loved you
I love you
and I can only dream
of days gone by
of a time when you
were with me
a part of me
still a part of me
wondering what it
would have been like
to hold you in my arms
hearing your laughter
feeling your arms
around my neck
with pure childish delight
I long to wake you
each day with a kiss or three
to see you grow into a handsome chap
….
I know without a doubt
this was God’s good plan
I have peace
I have accepted your death
as part of God’s bigger picture
Happy birthday sweet child
I will not forget you, little boy
nor do I wish to try
I will love you and keep you
close to my heart
until my dying breath..
Forever yours
Mama

 

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