Everything is unravelling at the moment. I suppose that isn’t a bad thing at all. Well, yesterday I felt like I hit hot rock bottom. It was a fast crash.  I mean already for sometime I have been battling a … Continue reading →

Mark 10.9 – Let no-one split apart what God has joined together Psalm 68.6 God places the lonely in families Exodus 20.12 Honour your father and mother, so that you may live long in the land the Lord your God … Continue reading →

When I was little and I got sick my biological father would tell me to get over it.  To pick myself up and to go out and do stuff.  I don’t know how I managed to get up and do … Continue reading →

Desperate despair…. painfully alone. Life screams and screams at me…. lost, confused…. the pain consumes me like engulfing fire. The intense pressure of feeling trapped.  Heart racing.  I fall. I weep. I am alone. No one can hear me. I … Continue reading →

This sense of sitting alone in a hot air balloon alone on the edge of the world wanting to fly. Wanting to be free from the haunted memories of a broken life spread before me. Wanting to be free from … Continue reading →

Anxiety is like the rising tide that ebbs and flows. It comes out of nowhere sometimes. Paralyses you into a state of fear. And what can be done then? Nothing. I had a good weekend.  It was filled with fun, … Continue reading →

Writing helps me process my thoughts.  Some thoughts I write may be concerning for some. But they should not be.  I am just going through a rough phase but that is OK. No big deal right? I am not alone … Continue reading →

The mask is easy to put on once you know how to handle the darkness that lingers around your soul day and night. It becomes your friend.  Your ally in this imperfect world. You can hush it. Sometimes it’ll be … Continue reading →

I don’t understand where this darkness comes from It asks me to fade with the tide Into a timeless void It consumes me till I am like a volcano ready to erupt A depressed volcano erupting Into ash And then … Continue reading →

In my life there never really seems to be a dull moment.  I feel like I’ve overcome some barriers this week.  As I sit back and reflect on the week gone by, I simply have to thank God for life.  … Continue reading →