Today is my middle child’s (Elouise) 5th birthday. Or she would have been 5. But didn’t get to be 5. Because 5 years ago she was called home. I don’t know what to say.. Except by the grace of God … Continue reading
Elouise
Category Archives: stillbirth
The Memory of Trees
I don’t want to walk through the puddles of life Hopscotching between the edges of sharp rocks Kissing the green, trees holding hands Trust and faith go hand in hand Water rushing, flowing in and out of the folds Of … Continue reading
Migraine Blitz
Another day, another week has gone by. It all started on Thursday. The extreme exhaustion. A sign. A scary sign that perhaps a migraine tornado is on its way over to storm my head once more. Only I found myself … Continue reading
In El Shaddai’s Presence I sit
In El Shaddai’s presence I sit With the earth roaring, gripping me into deathly silence In the terror of the night I say this ‘You God are my refuge, I trust in You, and I am safe’ Safe, oh so … Continue reading
Lighthouse
Keeping watch across the haven
A lighthouse stands thick and heavy
Blistered by crashing waves
Wind-tossed turmoil
Its smooth curves are perfection
The eye watches as I wander through
The fragments of a fractured life
Of wind-tossed turmoil
Musing over what is, what might be
As I look in stunned silence across
The sombre waves crashing, breaking
Lifting my fragile vulnerability into
The vast openness..
And the grace of God touches me
Exposing my weakness but
Learning to trust the Lighthouse
Leading me through wind-tossed turmoil
Leading me home
The Crossroads of London
The last time I went to London was the summer of 2014 when I was pregnant with my son. When I had the whole world at my feet, and felt like life was heading in a positive and wonderful direction. … Continue reading
Reflecting Reflections
As I approach the last week of my career in the company I am at, I am wondering if I could have tackled my time here in a different fashion. Who knows? I feel somewhat disappointed in myself that the … Continue reading
When God Calls
Have you ever heard God’s voice? Seen a vision from God? Felt God’s presence? Concluded what God wanted you to do? To be able to hear God’s voice you need to spend daily time with Him. Daily time in prayer, … Continue reading
Wrapping Things Up
I know I have been silent for a while. I have been meaning to write for a while. But haven’t had the time. Mainly because I have been crazy busy. And tonight….. I cannot sleep, as I am lying on … Continue reading
Migraine Assault
One-sided pain. Ear ache. Blindness, numb tingling feelings all over body. As if a sword has sunk deep into the flesh in the center of my brain. Spinning, spinning, spinning. Eyes shut to the onslaught of seemingly intense light. Ears … Continue reading
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