Palpations. Racing heart, chest constricting.  Nostrils flare.  Repeating myself.  Breathe Hannah, Breathe.  Arms and legs beginning to go numb, weak from lack of oxygen… or from the panic that wants to set in.  I will not let the panic set … Continue reading →

Gentle whispers caresses my broken heart. Melodies of love and hope is breathed across brokenness of deep human trembles. —– Tender moments of restful quiet with God, my Savior, as I sit on lazy rolling hills underneath dawns soft light … Continue reading →

Sleep as elusive as a butterfly passing Into the blue mists of forgotten dreams Across the horizon of God’s land Hope exists with promises From heaven —–  Insurmountable mountains to cross Desert plains in deep anguish Snake-like legacies bind Into … Continue reading →

If life could be like this bicycle, firmly rooted to its place, unwavering faith then wouldn’t life be plain sailing easy?  Or would it be boring?  Ok… So i am writing this at 2.27 in the morning.  My head pounding … Continue reading →

Psalm 127:3-4 Children are a heritage from the Lord, offspring a reward from him.  Like arrows in the hands of a warrior, are children born in one’s youth.   So, it is Sunday 8th May 2016.  Mother’s day. Mom’s day. … Continue reading →

The long night is over.  The long terrible night is over, somewhat to my relief.  My thoughts going haywire.  All over the place.  Zigzagging, crisscrossing, peaks and lows.  Still the panic is there.  Still the feeling of unease rises at … Continue reading →

The panic. The fear. The rising bile.  The 1000 needles poking through  my entire body.  Hypersensitivity? The devil’s lies.  All i can hear inside my war torn heart – you are not loved.   You are not loved. You are not … Continue reading →

The past month or so I have been so busy trying to forget that mother’s day is around the corner and I did forget, however then a reminder occurred, someone told me ‘oh you know its mother’s day next week’. … Continue reading →

Here’s a question for you.  Do we pray to God for the traffic light to turn green or do we pray to God to keep the traffic light red? Hmmm… I suppose it depends what you are praying for, and … Continue reading →

I feel like an outsider, an observer and yet intriguingly i am part of something bigger and vaster than the big deep blue sea. From where i sit/stand i find it oddly comforting to be amongst these strangers and yet … Continue reading →