I also remember writing an evening prayer last June when I had a big breakdown.  After 9 months of trying to stay strong, I no longer could be strong, and I remember sinking to my knees and crying out to … Continue reading →

It is amazing how much you can discover in the diaries that are covered in dust – diaries full of heartbreak, and letters to my son, as I try and process my grief.  It is only now after 19 months, … Continue reading →

This was written on 20th November 2014.  I was having a bad day.  I remember it well.  I was playing with words without really being present.  I remember I was trying to see in how many different ways you can … Continue reading →

My daughter Elouise’s birthday is coming up on Saturday.  With this impending birth-date, my heart grieves silently.  i curl myself into a tiny ball at home and I weep for what could have been. God’s peace will transcend.  I trust … Continue reading →

Silent tears roll Every tear counts God weeps with me.   I feel like a rabbit caught in a Cars headlight frozen to the spot Not knowing how to move forward. Look to the cross Sit in God’s presence.   … Continue reading →

I have been challenged.  Really challenged lately.  After hearing a testimony of Jules sitting at the cross every day for more than two years, it has blown me over.  What a challenge – for all of us, to not take … Continue reading →

This poem was written in November 2009 after I lost my first child.  At the time I didn’t know what the road ahead of was going to be like.  But thanks to my Micheline, i became closer to God.  Interestingly … Continue reading →

You ask me how I am doing? But the moment I open My mouth you turn around Don’t want to listen To my broken heart You close your ears To not hear the pain You close your eyes So you … Continue reading →

This poem was written on 18 December 2014, about 2.5 months after my son died.  I tried to picture what God would be saying to me through nature.  I guess in the moment that i wrote this poem i felt … Continue reading →

The poem despair I wrote in January 2015 when I was in the midst of a severe depression.  I couldn’t get out of it.  Wherever I turned I just saw darkness.  I was plagued with nightmares.  I was alone. Fighting … Continue reading →