The pain, the knife cutting at my scull with a pull and a thug, Not letting up, the great grey mass jumping around in the scull, Bouncing off in the dark corners, pushing, and sliding, the swish The bang, and … Continue reading →

A thankful heart will get you through a lot:  the tough days and the good days.   Psalm 103:1-5  Praise the Lord, my soul;     all my inmost being, praise his holy name. 2 Praise the Lord, my soul,     and forget not … Continue reading →

  For my precious little daugther: Though at times it is a distant memory, the clear silver lining clearly floats away into the far away distance marking a path across the climbing steeping mountains and rolling hills, with wind swirling … Continue reading →

Happy 4th Birthday Elouise! Kisses to the stars. Mummy loves and misses you soo much…… For as long as I can remember I wanted to be your mummy I dreamed of: Loving you Holding you Kissing your little cheeks Watching … Continue reading →

This poem was written in response to ‘A note from Mommy to Sebastian.’  I don’t know how i wrote this.  Both poems go hand in hand – in order for it to be appreciated if that makes sense? Anyways i … Continue reading →

I wrote this poem back in November 2014 or December 2014.  Can’t remember the exact date.  I just know it was very early on in the grieving process.  The poem has a follow up response called ‘A Note from Sebastian … Continue reading →

So on 29th July 2015, I wrote a morning prayer, thanking God for bringing me home safe, and for being on this difficult journey with me.  I wrote this, in a way to re-affirm my faith.  God is love.  God always … Continue reading →

I also remember writing an evening prayer last June when I had a big breakdown.  After 9 months of trying to stay strong, I no longer could be strong, and I remember sinking to my knees and crying out to … Continue reading →

It is amazing how much you can discover in the diaries that are covered in dust – diaries full of heartbreak, and letters to my son, as I try and process my grief.  It is only now after 19 months, … Continue reading →

This was written on 20th November 2014.  I was having a bad day.  I remember it well.  I was playing with words without really being present.  I remember I was trying to see in how many different ways you can … Continue reading →