The panic. The fear. The rising bile.  The 1000 needles poking through  my entire body.  Hypersensitivity? The devil’s lies.  All i can hear inside my war torn heart – you are not loved.   You are not loved. You are not … Continue reading →

The past month or so I have been so busy trying to forget that mother’s day is around the corner and I did forget, however then a reminder occurred, someone told me ‘oh you know its mother’s day next week’. … Continue reading →

Here’s a question for you.  Do we pray to God for the traffic light to turn green or do we pray to God to keep the traffic light red? Hmmm… I suppose it depends what you are praying for, and … Continue reading →

I feel like an outsider, an observer and yet intriguingly i am part of something bigger and vaster than the big deep blue sea. From where i sit/stand i find it oddly comforting to be amongst these strangers and yet … Continue reading →

Stimulkate stimulkate bakers men pushes dough, pushes dough then bakers men lets dough swing around on finger top freely like the leaves in union; the dough landing with a thump thump on hard cold tray in perfect line symmetry. The … Continue reading →

Philippians 2:14-18 14 Do everything without grumbling or arguing, 15 so that you may become blameless and pure, “children of God without fault in a warped and crooked generation.”[c] Then you will shine among them like stars in the sky 16 as you … Continue reading →

    I sit in your presence Lord. I come to worship you Lord. I give you my all. I surrender my all to you. O Lord, please convict me of my sins, please help me to grow more deeply … Continue reading →

Trapped in silence.  Trapped in fear.  Trapped. Everywhere i turn i am trapped.  The laughing figures in my sleep are chasing me, chasing me, grabbing me and then i am falling, falling, falling as they take hold of my weak … Continue reading →

My mommy is a survivor from what i hear, she didnt only lose me, but she lost my sisters too. From heavens door i watch her cry herself to sleep at night and i come still quietly to her and lie in … Continue reading →

I am wondering I wondered lonely as a cloud I am thinking about food an escape A food escape? Yes an escape To heavens plain Where no pain exists To fill this empty void Stuffed cupboards with junk Resists devils … Continue reading →