My pen is not flowing wet; it rather seems emotionless dry! The lost feelings; mass of confusion –it seems like walking through a thickmass of conifersup in mountainafter mountainno sight……just hollow emptiness…Where to begin? Where to begin? A pond so dark asmy running mind –deepness, … Continue reading →

An empty vessel in the middle of the wide blue distance Nothing there, just a silence An empty silence that hurts Sitting their heavily on the seas’ shoulder… There is no will Just an empty vessel, with Nothing but the … Continue reading →

Drifting in and out of consciousness.  Pain stabbing my head as if there is a knife lodged in my head.  Ready to explode.  Losing hope.  Feeling low.  I just want this to end.  I just want all of this pain … Continue reading →

John 1.5 – The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome it. For the past week I feel like I have run on empty.  My body has no fuel, so therefore the angst inside of me … Continue reading →

I will not be afraid, Lord I trust you. You are greater than any fear I have. You are in control of my life. I trust you Lord, to get me through this Oh God You are my God I seek … Continue reading →

Peace an elusive commodity My temple shakes like an earthquake Panic rising behind my throat Like bile Ready to be spewed out Like a fountain Darkness sifting in and out. Night takes hold as Empire of emotions Veil my entire … Continue reading →

Proverbs 14.30 – A relaxed attitude lengthens the life. Lately I do not feel like writing. I feel like what is the point in writing when no-one will read it?  I feel like it doesn’t help anyone.  But then the … Continue reading →

  Ezekiel 37:11 Then he said to me: “Son of man, these bones are the people of Israel. They say, ‘Our bones are dried up and our hope is gone; we are cut off. Sometimes it is much easier to … Continue reading →

Hindsight is a blessed thing.  It can also be cursed! As I sit in my room just thinking over the past 21 months plus a few days, it never ceases to amaze me to see God’s hand upon my life … Continue reading →

Sometimes you just have to act spontaneously and go out and do something crazy. Something that you usually wouldn’t do.   It could be that you have never drunk expresso and suddenly you change your habit from drinking two cappuccinos a … Continue reading →