What does it mean to struggle? According to Cambridge dictionary it means to experience difficulty and make a very great effort in order to do something.  What does to suffer mean? Again according to the dictionary to suffer means to feel pain or … Continue reading →

Often the deep questions of life keep me awake from the early hours of the morning till dawn breaks into a glorious day of sun.  I’ve been awake since two this morning, maybe earlier. Usually before a big day for … Continue reading →

Yesterday, I had the mother of all migraines. A living hell.  I wanted to die. I think this must have been one of the worst attacks I have ever had when it comes to migraine land. This was the first real … Continue reading →

I feel incredibly disconnected from life today. Though the sun is shining and it is unusually hot for this time of year. I should be outside enjoying the sun. The weather before the season turns and winter arrives on our … Continue reading →

It is 1.05 pm, four years Since your birth.. and death But it seems as if it only Happened hours ago. The air is thick with memories Grief surprises me this year Comes crashing in thick and fast I remember … Continue reading →

My dearest Sebastian, Happy 4th Birthday in heaven! If you were here we would be maybe having pancakes or waffles for breakfast I imagine.  We would sit around the table at Grandma and Grandpa’s house with Auntie Madeleine and I … Continue reading →

How long should one grieve? Is there a time limit on grief? All those parents who have lost children before birth – are they entitled to grieve? One month, two months, three months, one year, two years, three years, four … Continue reading →

Four years ago today it was a rainy grey and cold day. I woke up early that day before dawn broke with period-like cramps. It was the beginning of contractions.  I told my mom and she said to time them. … Continue reading →

Say, what if God isn’t real? And what if he is real? If God isn’t real then life would be meaningless? Surely…  Probable! No? Possibly? Yes? If God didn’t create this masterpiece Who would create this Wonderful masterpiece displayed before … Continue reading →

I am my mother’s child, I am my father’s child I am God’s child Wherever I go I am Hannah Celine I don’t wear a mask anymore What you see is what you get I am who I am – … Continue reading →