All my life I have always waited. Waited. Waited. Waited. Waited. Waited. Yes and more waiting. And each time I waited right at the end it left – usually by death or it simply wasn’t ‘meant to be’. I waited … Continue reading
All my life I have always waited. Waited. Waited. Waited. Waited. Waited. Yes and more waiting. And each time I waited right at the end it left – usually by death or it simply wasn’t ‘meant to be’. I waited … Continue reading
Second countdown Time merging into Past and present Present and past Future and present Present and future Twenty-three months of needless pain pain and more needless pain; feeling empty lonely sad lost uncertain frightened confused What is my … Continue reading
For a long time I had clarity for the purpose of my life, then out of nowhere as if a bomb landed into my world from knowing exactly what I needed to do to a point where I was completely … Continue reading
Trapped like a helpless catterpillar Emotions splayed Nakedly across barren land As peace rushes Out like the wind Blowing wildly The silent sirens echoe Inside my battered heart Bouncing from wall to wall Screaming: Brokenness. Despair everywhere Washed … Continue reading
Sometimes I feel like I have been forgotten. Like I am just a distant memory from a by gone past. I wish it wasn’t so. I wish emotions weren’t playing a persuasive role in me being somewhat forgotten. As I … Continue reading
I managed to sleep some then unfortunately got woken up because needs must. Only to not be able to fall asleep again. My mind spinning once more. Fearful for the future. I must trust God. I must not succumb … Continue reading
How does it feel to be completely and utterly fatigued out? I haven’t had a full nights’ sleep in a little over five days. Since Wednesday last week I have had broken nights’ sleep again. Waking two to three times … Continue reading
psalm 94.18-19 – when I said, ‘my foot is slipping,’ your unfailing love, Lord, supported me. When anxiety was great within me, your consolation brought me joy. I don’t know how to write today. This is written trying to make … Continue reading
The anxiety. If you only knew what it was like to live with this daily anxiety that binds you. That chains you emotionally as if you are hanging off a cliff. Ready to jump. I hate it. It paralyses me. … Continue reading
Sometimes you have to be like a chameleon and adapt to the new situation as quickly as a chameleon can change to a different color. Only for me it is not that simple. It is trying. It is hard. It … Continue reading