My dearest Sebastian, Happy 5th Birthday in Heaven! Another year has come and gone since your untimely passing. I often wonder what it would be like to have you here, or what it would have been like to wake up … Continue reading →

It is 1.05pm, five years Since your birth.. and death But it seems as if it only Happened hours ago It hurts this year, This feeling of anger ensares me I question why did you die? For the first time … Continue reading →

Dear Father in Heaven – I have been ill all week. I haven’t done much. I’ve hardly eaten. I’ve not had any energy and therefore not been able to do much. I feel quite disheartened and deflated. I felt hurt … Continue reading →

In a very strange way this year I feel like I have gone through a lense, sort of like a tunnel revisiting the hospital room where I was cooped up for days prior to my son’s birth and the days … Continue reading →

For some five years is a long time. For others it’s a passing of time. A marker of time. A reality that no longer is a new reality but the reality of what God gave you for the time being. … Continue reading →

Sweet Baby Boy in heaven above, It’s been five years since you departed Father God sent you to me with much love Not knowing what pain it would cause I deal with it just because When you were inside of … Continue reading →

Dear Sebastian, It’s been five years almost to the last moments I felt you move. I can’t remember at what stage you last moved. Was it late evening on the 25th of September 2014 or in the early hours of … Continue reading →

It’s another year almost since your untimely death and I find myself screaming in my pillow. Screaming angry tears of regret. I wish to the heavens that you did not have to die Sebastian. I miss you so unbelievably much … Continue reading →

I’m recovering from a severe migraine attack. This last one lasted 48 hours in total. I remember going to work, vaguely remember that my colleague took me home. I had a blinding headache. I should not have dragged myself to … Continue reading →