Life as it is: I wake up, I take a shower, I have my quiet time with God, I walk to work to allow me the space and freedom to pray, I eat breakfast at work, I sit at work … Continue reading →

Dedicated to Toby Lawler on his 1st birthday in heaven.  Born sleeping on 12th July 2o15.  Wishing much gentleness to your mummy, daddy, brother and sisters.  Stay safe in the arms of Jesus.  We all love you precious angel. Tonight … Continue reading →

So obviously God has got a calling on my life.  Last week Friday I said I would not write for the foreseeable future because I am going through the mist of despair or going through dry and parched land where … Continue reading →

My dearest baby boy, It has been a while since mommy has written you a letter.  So here goes.  Mommy is feeling sad the past couple of weeks.  Struggling, battling depression.  Hardly hungry these days.  Maybe its too hot??  This … Continue reading →

My pen is not flowing wet; it rather seems emotionless dry! The lost feelings; mass of confusion –it seems like walking through a thickmass of conifersup in mountainafter mountainno sight……just hollow emptiness…Where to begin? Where to begin? A pond so dark asmy running mind –deepness, … Continue reading →

An empty vessel in the middle of the wide blue distance Nothing there, just a silence An empty silence that hurts Sitting their heavily on the seas’ shoulder… There is no will Just an empty vessel, with Nothing but the … Continue reading →

Drifting in and out of consciousness.  Pain stabbing my head as if there is a knife lodged in my head.  Ready to explode.  Losing hope.  Feeling low.  I just want this to end.  I just want all of this pain … Continue reading →

John 1.5 – The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome it. For the past week I feel like I have run on empty.  My body has no fuel, so therefore the angst inside of me … Continue reading →

I will not be afraid, Lord I trust you. You are greater than any fear I have. You are in control of my life. I trust you Lord, to get me through this Oh God You are my God I seek … Continue reading →

Peace an elusive commodity My temple shakes like an earthquake Panic rising behind my throat Like bile Ready to be spewed out Like a fountain Darkness sifting in and out. Night takes hold as Empire of emotions Veil my entire … Continue reading →