So obviously God has got a calling on my life.  Last week Friday I said I would not write for the foreseeable future because I am going through the mist of despair or going through dry and parched land where … Continue reading →

My dearest baby boy, It has been a while since mommy has written you a letter.  So here goes.  Mommy is feeling sad the past couple of weeks.  Struggling, battling depression.  Hardly hungry these days.  Maybe its too hot??  This … Continue reading →

My pen is not flowing wet; it rather seems emotionless dry! The lost feelings; mass of confusion –it seems like walking through a thickmass of conifersup in mountainafter mountainno sight……just hollow emptiness…Where to begin? Where to begin? A pond so dark asmy running mind –deepness, … Continue reading →

An empty vessel in the middle of the wide blue distance Nothing there, just a silence An empty silence that hurts Sitting their heavily on the seas’ shoulder… There is no will Just an empty vessel, with Nothing but the … Continue reading →

Drifting in and out of consciousness.  Pain stabbing my head as if there is a knife lodged in my head.  Ready to explode.  Losing hope.  Feeling low.  I just want this to end.  I just want all of this pain … Continue reading →

John 1.5 – The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome it. For the past week I feel like I have run on empty.  My body has no fuel, so therefore the angst inside of me … Continue reading →

I will not be afraid, Lord I trust you. You are greater than any fear I have. You are in control of my life. I trust you Lord, to get me through this Oh God You are my God I seek … Continue reading →

Peace an elusive commodity My temple shakes like an earthquake Panic rising behind my throat Like bile Ready to be spewed out Like a fountain Darkness sifting in and out. Night takes hold as Empire of emotions Veil my entire … Continue reading →

Proverbs 14.30 – A relaxed attitude lengthens the life. Lately I do not feel like writing. I feel like what is the point in writing when no-one will read it?  I feel like it doesn’t help anyone.  But then the … Continue reading →

  Ezekiel 37:11 Then he said to me: “Son of man, these bones are the people of Israel. They say, ‘Our bones are dried up and our hope is gone; we are cut off. Sometimes it is much easier to … Continue reading →