El Shaddai, o El Shaddai hear my cry! Take away my turmoil, take away my doubt, Cleanse me from the inside out!! Help me O Lord to see clarity in the storm   El Shaddai, O Adonai hear my cry. … Continue reading →

As I sit in solitude listening to quiet music in the background I reflected on the last year and look through a looking glass on what what has been and has gone.   It seems as if the good moments are … Continue reading →

John 14.17 Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you.  I do not give to you as the world gives.  Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid. Peace will come like water falling … Continue reading →

I wrote this about 6 months ago.  Its always interesting to see how much progress i have made since that day my world changed forever.  I think i am making progress.  The thing is the waves of depression come in … Continue reading →

Falling, falling, falling am I Into the deep, deep pit of despair Darkness all around Hands reaching, reaching, reaching Down towards me Lifting me gently towards the light I collapse, falling, falling…… ~~~ Do not be afraid my child Fear … Continue reading →

Silence – Suffocating pain Chest constrictions Darkness versus light Rise above the darkness Woman of God! ~~~ Fear of rejection Spinning world comes To a halted stop as I Clutch onto memories of hope Pain etched tightly around My face … Continue reading →

Overcoming the feeling of rejection is no easy feat.  In fact it proves to be a very difficult to overcome.  A life-time of rejection and feelings of abandonment have left me rather shaken in the last week or so. Yesterday, … Continue reading →

Dear Lord Thank you for the strength you have given me to pass the difficult day yesterday. Thank you for holding me and loving me and for staying close to my heart. Thank you for the opportunity to go to … Continue reading →

Trapped in white sterile walls Row after row of tables The ticking of keyboards I am confined To my chair. Prisoner of Work. Despair Help Me Please! I cant do this No more. Drowning Chest constricts Cant breathe The slow … Continue reading →

Almost a year to the day since my son was still born and my own ‘cancelled’ baby shower I arrived to celebrate a friend’s upcoming birth. I was excited for her, but full of anticipation to see what would happen. … Continue reading →