I remember writing this 7 months after my son died, I was at a place where I was starting to feel at peace about his death, even if it hurt me so much losing him… In a few days my … Continue reading
Acceptance
Category Archives: stillbirth
Hurting ↔ Restless
I don’t know whether to cry or to pace up and down till I feel my peace. I am really struggling today. I have been battling migraines every day since last week Monday. I am exhausted. I am worn out. … Continue reading
Abandoned Swing
I am sitting here at the kitchen table contemplating, thinking, wondering, remembering what it was like to have you in my womb dearest Sebastian. But you’re not here. You are probably somewhere up in heaven singing songs of praises to … Continue reading
Fed-Up @ Work, Hopeful Future
Lately, I just feel so bored and fed up with my job. Lacking the motivation to be able to do anything useful with my time. Feeling like I am not contributing to society in a way that I would want … Continue reading
Broken
Broken like a dam The flood gates opening wide As the tears drip Down my broken face Jesus weeps with me God weeps with me Shattering like broken glass Reflections mirrored across The hurt in a thousand Little … Continue reading
Sebby Gone
Depressed. Dark rain cloud over my head constantly. Grieving all the time. It has been a slow decline into the pit of despair for me. I don’t know how to explain myself. Maybe its post-natal depression? Can you get post-natal … Continue reading
Memories of a Forgotten Past – Stop Domestic Violence
Someone told me a very sad story this morning, and it just broke my heart. I used to think that certain families have it all. On the outward appearance they look perfect. They look happy. But then behind closed doors … Continue reading
Desperate Situation
Today I woke up feeling glum, and the gloominess increasing by the minute. The volcano of tears almost always ready to explode. Ready to break down into tears. Wreaking havoc everywhere in my wake. It simply doesn’t get easier with … Continue reading
September aka Birth month for Sebby
Who knew that time could fly so fast? That time doesn’t stand still. That somehow time moves forward. Who knew that my world could be changed forever in the flick of an eye? It seems that every time September rounds … Continue reading
Patiently Waiting
All my life I have always waited. Waited. Waited. Waited. Waited. Waited. Yes and more waiting. And each time I waited right at the end it left – usually by death or it simply wasn’t ‘meant to be’. I waited … Continue reading
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