Taking a step of faith

Sometimes in life you have to take a step of faith, some people call it taking a gamble. I have always known and will always know that money doesn’t buy you happiness. But money sadly does sort of play an important role in adult life. When you are a child you don’t really worry about money and how you are going to live from day to day. Not unless your parents talk about it and it becomes a daily topic in the house. Your parents can teach you to be money smart or you could be one of those that doesn’t know how to deal with money because you were never taught how to. Fortunately, for me I was taught to be wise with money and I learned from an early age how to budget and how to deal with situations in a crisis and outside of a crisis. Sometimes it means making sacrifices.

I work as part of a team and as project coordinator to prevent homelessness. It’s people facing and I am way out of my comfort zone and yet I love what I do – making changes in a person’s life in order for them to be able to manage life better. It’s a full on and full-time job. But my health was slowly retreating. I was getting more and more hefty migraines. And medication wasn’t touching it. A doctor has always had to come out to give me injections because nothing orally would work anymore to relief me of this intense throb. And then I am battling exhaustion and I am going from week to week with tiredness and recovery but never really recovering. So, I made the difficult decision to reduce my hours from working a steady 5 days week after week to 5 days 4 days 5 days 4 days and so on. This is in the hope that my migraines will stop and that I’ll have more time to catch up on myself. Who knows if I don’t do this would I still be working in 6 months time? Or would I be so ill that I would no longer be able to work and then we’d be worse off? After all, I have been toying with this idea now for months. Always put off with making the decision not knowing if we will manage financially. But ultimately it is God that provides for our every need. And we have to believe and trust in the God that can do the impossible.

I learned that money doesn’t buy health. In order to be healthy sometimes sacrifices have to be made and sometimes trusting the Almighty is the best option as he takes you on this crazy adventure called life. I know that productively I’ll do much better with more space to be by myself and to be free. I also believe that my work quality will improve because there will be more time to relax and to be still.

So, what is it that you are facing? What difficult decisions do you have to make in the foreseeable future? Is it health related? Or is it something else? What is important to you in life? What is stopping you from making that decision? Often when we have to make a decision we feel like we are letting the people closest to us and the people that we deal with on a daily basis down. It’s always difficult to make changes or when we are not comfortable with something we have a tendency to stall. Should I? Or should I not? But don’t forget that God has got it’s best for us. And He’s always waiting for us to reach out to His hand and to take hold of it. And then God says I’ve got you, you’re not alone. You are safe. Together we will get through this. There is a way, there always is.

Trust in Him. He knows what you are going through. He is the Almighty and He knows what we need and when we need it. So, I surrender it all at the foot of the cross and I will no longer stall but forge forward step by step. And not look at the giant that I have to climb but at the mole hill. One step at a time. One minute at a time. One day at a time and it will be OK. And I will learn to breathe through it. God is good. He is so good.

So, I encourage you to look up to Him for direction and to trust Him in all things. He will pave the way. Amen.

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