Diary: Day 46 – 49 – A Walk on Water

Isaiah 12.2 – Surely God is my salvation; I will trust and not be afraid. The Lord, the Lord himself is my strength and my defense; he has become my salvation. 

Whatever way you look at life – you can either say it is a series of tribulations or a series of blessings with lessons in the hard moments.  I am still struggling. One moment I am OK with significantly more peace than the weeks before.  Other times I have to fight off the enemy,

Faith makes you try the impossible, while doubt keeps you from the possible. When I quit my job on July 2nd – I put my total 100% of trust in the Lord. That he would provide for my financial needs, provide for every area in my life. When I look back at that and had let doubt take the upper hand in my life I would still be stuck in that job. I would not have taken the risk of believing that God has something better for me out there… A better plan than what I had planned out for myself.

I am supposed to start my counselling course in Southampton next week. I am still looking for accommodation. Still looking for a job. But I am believing that God can provide all those things in his perfect timing. I know God is the God of the impossible. That he can move mountains where it doesn’t seem possible.  The impossible is possible when we put our trust and hope in the Lord. When we pray to the Lord and seek to do what is in his will.

The last months have been challenging for me.  It has been tough, and has tested my faith.  There were moments where I thought I am not sure if I believe in God anymore.  If he really is real. But then I think about all the good things in my life. All the blessings in my life and I know that God is real.  I know that God has given me those blessings and given me his love. His companionship when I was at my lowest low.  I know that God can do things. I have seen and witnessed him do miracles in other people’s lives so why can’t he in my life?

I no longer think  – I must have a job. My thinking has changed. It has now become more focused on God. And what God wants me to do, and where he wants me to go.  I am learning to be in tune with his voice, and not my voice. I am learning not to give in to fear anymore. I am learning to walk alongside God, trusting even when trusting is tough. I am learning to keep my eyes focused on him rather than on myself. God is a God of grace. He is the master of my life, he will turn my painting/story into his master piece. I will keep putting my hope and trust in God.

My trust for accommodation. My trust for a job.  God is the God of the impossible. Faith is believing that God can do things that seem impossible. Doubt hinders you from moving forward, and living your life to the fullest.  Pray with me, I ask.  Pray that all things will work out in his good timing. Thank you.

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