Diary: Day 41 – A Walk on Water

Psalm 16.11 – You make known to me the path of life; you will fill me with joy in your presence, with eternal pleasures at your right hand. 

Another day. A day of reflection. A quiet day. A busy day.  A time to stand in awe of God’s provision. Of God’s grace in my life. Amazed at his love for me. Amazed at how he cares for me through my darkest days. And shows me his amazing love through the different people that are blessing me.  Hugging me in their love.

I woke up this morning with a heavy migraine. It lifted. Praise the Lord. I sat down in front of my computer with this immense peace, and wrote my application. I sent it off. Within four hours I got invited for a job interview. I am going for the interview in a step of faith.  Trusting that God can open the door for me.  I feel blessed today. I feel blessed over the last few weeks. God’s grace has sustained me through some of the roughest seas since my son died.  Thank you God for keeping me safe.  Thank you for holding me in your arms when i didn’t think you cared for me anymore.  You are an amazing God.

Livia the dog woke me up this morning. The other day she was so angry with me. I think it was Monday because she was not allowed to wake me up.  That day Livia did not speak to me all day.  Now we are the best of friends again.  A man’s best friend.  It is a saying. It seems to be a true saying.  She’s been very therapeutic for me.  Showering me with her love.  Our bond came when I cried that day on the sofa, and she jumped on my lap and tried to comfort me, and take away the tears that were welling up in my eyes.  Since then she’s sat by my feet, woken me up in the morning and put a smile on my face. Erika has been amazing.  Extended grace and no judgement to me. Thank you for the love you have showered me these past 3 weeks.  I have truly enjoyed it.

I pray for you Erika and your dear husband. I pray that you will get through this difficult time. And trust God step-by-step. That God can guide you. That God will bless you.  I feel like I have found a place where I can belong to.  Where I can be free without judgement. Thank you for this.  I love you dearly.

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