Hope you are well. I have been praying for you lately. I have a lot more time on my hands now, then I had done previously. It’s funny how your life can be so different when you have no job to go to. It is strange in a way. Ample time on your hands. And then not really. No time really. Suddenly you rise in popularity as people realise you are leaving and they want to spend time with you. Last minute time. So I create space to do that. But really what I want, what I need is not heard. I just want silence. I just want peace. I just don’t want to be bombarded with a million questions. Bombarded with a million and one things to do. I need a day off. A day to myself. A day of freedom. A day away from the clutter of day to day life.
So here I am sitting in the chaos of my room looking at how much stuff I have when the reality is I don’t need all that stuff. So I de-clutter some more. A process I did last year and I guess a process I will be repeating. How do I manage to accumulate so much stuff in such a short space of time? I am learning to not get attached to material stuff. I am learning not to put too much sentimental value on stuff but rather to focus on the more important things in life: helping people, serving the Lord, worshipping the Lord. Maybe one day I will reach that place of complete rest in the Lord who knows?
Needless to say I have my own worries. Something I don’t really want to get into. All I am saying is that this time next week I will be spending my last night with the people that I live with. The ones that took me in after I got scammed in Berlin. The ones that showered me with love, with grace, with kindness. So much love and so much kindness. And what did I do to deserve that? Nothing really. I didn’t know them. They didn’t know me, and yet they took me in with love. They took me in. A complete stranger on their doorstep. And they gave me the comforts of their home. I will be indebted to them forever. It makes me sad that my time has come to an end. But I know I must embark on a new journey. A journey of faith and trust. Believing that God has a plan for me whatever that may be. Wherever that may be. Whatever he wants me to do, I will follow.
So that is what is on my mind this week. Materialistic stuff that I do not need and showering people with love the way I have been showered with love over the last seven months. I pray that Father will soften my heart and that I will be open to helping anyone and everyone that comes across my path.
Know that I am praying for you daily.
With much love,