Adventure. What does adventure mean? It means an unusual and daring experience out of your comfort zone. Over the last 5 months God has been testing me out of my comfort zone. Testing to see if I will trust Him, seek Him, rejoice in Him, and if I will follow Him wherever He leads. It’s a challenge. At moments my faith falters. And I feel like I am plunging into the depths of the unknown, but the one thing that keeps me going is the knowledge that God is in control. That there is no point in worrying about tomorrow, for what is the point when I don’t have control over what will happen. Only God sees the bigger picture. We can’t. But we can focus our eyes on God, on the cross, where Jesus takes our pain, our hurts, our sins, so that we can live.
What do I want to do with my life? I know where I want to go with my life. And this is all a learning experience. All something I can write about one day. Why should I run away from it? I should be embracing this new situation, and trusting God to see me through this. God knows what He is doing. He knows what is best for me. So will I trust Him or run away from Him?
Yes, the start of this new adventure in my life – in Germany, has been somewhat challenging, and testing of my patience, my faith, my perseverance. I need to be joyful and content with whatever my situation is.
I shouldn’t think
It just feels like all my hopes and dreams are dashed.
BUT I should replace it with
I feel like I’m on the edge of a great big adventure… And God is leading me forward.
Giving up now would be a step backwards. Would mean starting all over again somewhere else from scratch. Why not embrace the situation and let God do His thing, that He does best. Why not accept the new situation? Why live by fear, when I know that God has His best interest at heart for me. He wants me to be happy. He doesn’t want me to take a shortcut. He wants me to have patience. And so I will trust God. I will trust that He will make this new dwelling place in Germany wherever that may be a success. A blessing, even with its challenges, I know I can overcome anything when God is walking besides me.
Besides, I have a whole team of people praying for me, I have so many blessings in my life. So why am I so afraid and so uncertain of what the future holds? Am I afraid to HOPE that something good will happen? I used to be afraid of HOPE. Especially after my son died, I didn’t see how I could have HOPE when everything around me was falling apart.
God wants me to embrace this transition. He wants me to be in this new situation, because He knows if I stayed where I stayed, I would never leave my comfort zone, I would never grow spiritually. My faith would remain stagnant. That is not what God wants. He wants us to go forth with courage and proclaim the gospel, proclaim His goodness towards us, His saving actions in our lives. He doesn’t want us to shrink away in shame. He wants us to have peace. He wants us to be whole in His name. And that is my HOPE. The hope and assurance that I have in Christ, knowing that I have been saved/been forgiven for my sins, and that God’s got my back.
God says with every decision we make, with every situation we are in to devote ourselves to prayer, being watchful and thankful in all things (Colossians 4.2). He also says let your conversations be always full of grace, seasoned with salt, so that you may know how to answer every-one (Colossians 4.6). God teaches us to seek Him for every decision we make. If we rush decisions we will falter. So, it is better to pray and to seek Him before making an unwise decision that can in effect ruin your life.
Its all about having patience, trusting and believing God, and looking forward to the prize. To the goal. Towards God’s will for your life, and things will eventually work out. Learn to be content with whatever situation you are in, and great things will happen to you.