We have entered our third month of courtship though it feels a lot longer. You’ve become very dear to me in a short space of time. I long to know what your thoughts are, I long to walk beside you and see what the Lord has in store for both of us. But I am trusting the Lord. Trusting the Lord to guide us each and every step of the way with much prayer and petition.
We went home in February and you met my family. That was a very special time. My parents, brothers and sisters welcomed you into the family like their very own and that moved me beyond belief. I was so thankful to the Lord that you were accepted. That was my biggest worry and I should not have worried. You were relaxed, yourself and much loved.
When I look back at the letters I have written to you, I am so amazed at how the Lord has answered so many of my prayers in these letters – especially regarding you. You’re truly a man of God. You are on fire for the Lord and I admire that about you. Keep being on fire for the Lord. The stories you tell me every time we see each other always amazes me and makes me want to know more about you. You are such a special man – I am so blessed to be able to walk along side you and be a part of your life.
I often pray to the Lord and say ‘God give me the grace to love your son the way you love him, let me encourage him the way you want me to encourage him, let me care for him the way you want me to care for him.’ And so I try my best. We stumble occasionally. Pick up the pieces and start again – building our foundations firmly in God’s love and strength. Not in our own strength. We cannot do it alone. We need God to be the centre of everything that we do. And so I look up to the Lord for guidance and I trust the Lord.
My dearest I respect you, and see you as the head of our relationship (not in a negative sense) but the way the Bible has taught us for it to be. I don’t want anyone else. I see loads of people throughout the day when I am out and about, whether it used to be at work or in town – I look at these people and I thank God that he gave me you because your heart is so gentle, so kind, so full of goodness. Never lose that my dearest.
I love our moments together especially when you gently take me in your arms and hum a little song and dance with me. Close to your heart, and we dance in the kitchen and I can feel myself falling in love with you all over again. You touch my heart in ways I didn’t think was possible. I am overflowing with gratitude to the Lord for bringing you into my life.
Thank you for loving me, and for being so patient with me as I am learning to deal with the brokenness in my life. Thank you for helping me to step out of my comfort zone and be able to move on from certain aspects in my life. You mean more to me than you will ever realise and I hope that I can be as much of a blessing to you as you are to me.
Love you loads.