Diary: Day 38-39 – A Walk on Water

2 Peter 1.3 – His divine power has given us everything we need for a godly life through our knowledge of him who called us by his own glory and goodness.

There is no such thing as a coincidence. I think everything happens for a reason.  I think things happen because God orchestrates these things to be. In my sadness, in my burnout time – God brought me to a place where I could rest. But also he brought me to a place where I could realise and see that I am actually appreciated. I know I am appreciated by my friends (I guess I just forgot what it was like to be appreciated). So much happened so quickly that I kind of got lost on the way and forgot who I was.

I still overwhelm easily. I was going to start the job search today. But I ended up having a semi-migraine.  And decided to skip the job search for today. Tomorrow is a new day. I can do it tomorrow by the grace of God. Instead I took the dogs for a short walk this morning. Then I went out and walked around Herscheid for a bit.  Then I went for a run – which was nice. My first run since I burnout.

It is hot today. Hotter then yesterday. Though the mornings are cold. Fresh. I enjoy being woken up by the dogs. I will miss that when i leave this place.  Dogs can be very healing for the soul.  Livia the dog is sad now. She seems to know that I will be leaving this week, and that makes me sad. Because she doesn’t want to spend time with me. Or cuddle with me!

Today will be a healthy meal – salad. I think it is too warm to cook in this weather. So made the decision that salad it is for today.  I like salad. I like cooking. I like blessing others.  I find it easier to give then to receive. I find it easier to build a wall around my heart when I have to say goodbye then to be open and totally vulnerable with my feelings. Anyways I know I can always come back to this place one day. Lord willing.

I am a very blessed person. Thankful that God loves me. Thankful that people care and love me. Thankful that people want to support me. It is through God’s grace after all.

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