Have you ever wondered what it is like to be me?
To struggle onward. To keep smiling through the tears
To keep persevering when the going gets tough?
How I wish sometimes for a fast-forward button
A speed button
Something to get me out of this situation
That seems to have no end to it

Have you ever wondered what it is like to be me?
Some days I wake up feeling
I can do this
I can get through this
Other days I don’t see the point
It’s too hard
Yet persevere I do
Because I know there is no other way
Forward

Have you ever wondered what it is like to be me?
A mother to children that died
Wondering what they might have looked like
A woman broken by what life throws at her
I cry most days, the tears are on the surface
But persevere I do
What choice do I have?
What choice is there?
To stray from God’s love?
To run into Father’s love?

Have you ever wondered what it is like to be me?
Try putting on my shoes
Try understanding where my
Anxiety
Insecurities
Fears
Come from
Maybe then you will understand me
The raging war inside of me

I am a woman marred with
Rivers of complexity
I am a broken woman
Shattered like fragmented glass
I am God’s daughter
Painfully broken
But becoming whole
By the grace of God