In Your Presence

I love to be in Your presence, Lord.  I love to be in Your presence, Lord.

Today is a good day.  Today, I can feel your tangible presence in my life, and I feel like that there is hope.  That I am not alone.  That Your will come to be.  I feel Your blessing upon my life.  You hear our my prayers when we need You, and when things are going well in our lives.  Thank You Lord, for Your love upon me, for Your grace in my life.  Thank you Lord Jesus.  Thank you Jesus!

Matthew 7.7

Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.  

Its amazing really that all we have to do is be in the presence of the Lord and He will give us the desires of our heart.

So many wonderful things are happening in my life. Yesterday and over the last week I have to admit that I was feeling discouraged, disheartened, and de-motivated to do anything at all.  Discouraged about my book because I wasn’t sure if it would have an impact on people who have lost babies.  But my friend Mandy has reassured me that it will help many people.

Praise the Lord for her friendship and for her desire now to know God! – And to have a personal relationship with him.  She says before she lost her baby she didn’t go to church and didn’t have any peace about her little boy’s death.  But through my friendship, and through reading the manuscript of my book and my blogs she has come to know God on a personal level.  Hallelujah.  Praise be to God!

God is working miracles everywhere.  The problem is we are often blindsided by the miracles/blessings in day to day life.  Because for most having food on the table is a norm, for some its a privilege.  This is just an easy example.

But the more I study and read the bible, the more I notice how tangible God’s presence is in our lives.  The more I notice how very real He is, and that we are not alone battling the storms of our lives.  When I look back to two years ago I thought i would be stuck in this stage of grief for the rest of my life.  It is hard to imagine how far I have come, and i wouldn’t have come this far if it wasn’t for the Lord’s presence in my life.  If it wasn’t for the Lord’s grace upon me.  He carried me through the toughest days of my life, and I came out of it stronger, and healthier, and shining because Christ lives in me.

“If you choose to move forward from depression , step by step, eventually you will reach the end, and when you do it is so very refreshing. You look back at all those months that have gone by and you realize you have done it. You have coped. You have managed to get through one of the toughest times in your life. You are no longer walking wounded, but a person fragmented back together into the new you. Some of your old ways stay with you, and new ways have also etched their way into your life. There is nothing wrong with that.”  Taken from my book ‘Sebby – Son of Hope’ due to be published April 2017

I remember how broken I was when Sebastian died.  But God put the fragmented pieces of my life back together and now there is a new version of ‘Hannah’.  If people ask me how I coped the last two years of my life.  Honestly I can say I wouldn’t have coped if it weren’t for God’s presence in my life. If I didn’t know God, I don’t think I would be where I am now.  Let alone have a book nearly ready for publication.

You know people often ask me would you rather have had Sebastian here?  Well how would you answer that?  Of course I would have loved to have Sebastian here.  But hindsight can be a curse sometimes! Instead of looking back at a time that could have been my reality I have had to learn to look forward and to focus on the current reality I am living in.  What is the point in living in the past? When we know we cannot change the past.  We cannot turn the clocks around and turn that awful event into a wonderful event.  But what we can do is to learn from the tragedy that occurred and turn it into something beautiful.  Or let God turn it into something beautiful. And to learn to accept it, whilst knowing that God is in control of our lives. I am reassured on a daily basis that God’s purposes will prevail.  I am blessed to be able to read the bible every day and to study God’s word.  I could turn the question around and ask them ‘How would you have coped if your child died?’

I simply love being in God’s presence, knowing that He is with me every step of the way and wants to bless me, and that He forgives me for my sinful nature. Being in God’s presence is always a learning curve, but one I enjoy very much.  It never ceases to amaze me how wonderful and majestic God is.  How He rains blessings upon us.  I have a thankful heart.  And my desire is to get to know God more closely, and to walk closely beside Him.  I no longer want to walk this earth by myself, but to have God by my side at all times.  For His ways are GOOD!

To be in God’s presence means to spend daily quality time with Him.  I want to encourage you to seek God’s presence on a daily basis meaning reading the bible, praying and worshiping Him and just sharing all your thoughts with him.  You will know you are in God’s presence.  It is a place of a deep sense of security and peace that falls onto your world.

Have a blessed day dear readers! May the Lord give you peace as you go about your daily tasks.

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