Migraine Assault

One-sided pain.  Ear ache.  Blindness, numb tingling feelings all over body. As if a sword has sunk deep into the flesh in the center of my brain.  Spinning, spinning, spinning.  Eyes shut to the onslaught of seemingly intense light.  Ears close to the painful mumble of voices around me.  Sinking. Drowning. Fighting.  Battling. A war…

Hurting

Hurting again, tears flowing endlessly down like a cascading waterfall Wondering when it will all end?  Will it get any easier? The pain? The hurt?  The rejected feeling? The ignored feeling? How can I move past my old ways and move into my new ways? Without the past staining my present, and future.    

Basis of Graditude

Colossians 2.6-7 So then, just as you received Christ Jesus as Lord, continue to live your lives in him, rooted and built up in him, strengthened in faith as you were taught, and overflowing with thanksgiving. Basis of gratitude. To be thankful for everything, I mean literally everything.  Hard isn’t it to be thankful for…

Daily Time with God

Before Sebastian-David died, I read the Bible perhaps two or three times per week. Afterwards, I started reading the Bible daily, particularly when I started the second year of my grief journey. I also started doing Bible studies to deal with the negative emotions inside me. I made it a priority in my life. I…

Depression

Depression is like a wave that crashes against you and pushes you under till you are submerged underneath something that presses against your chest. Then you are trying to claw your way out with all your strength and all your might. It is a feeling of being overwhelmed completely. Frozen into a space of time,…