Simply Overwhelmed

Simply overwhelmed.  Painfully broken. Depleted. Heart shattering.  Emotions haywire.  Lost in a world of brokenness.  Lost in thought.  Clinging onto the cross.  Cleanse me from the inside out oh God.  Purify my heart.  Darkness weaves in and out into shapes beyond my imagination stuck like glue – an unwanted presence.  Constricting pain.  Contracting in and out,…

FaLLeN wOrLD

Heart crashing, falling, breaking Slow motion ka boom The pain, the sadness Crash boom ka boom   Emotions spilling over the River banks flooding Everything in its wake My sorrow carved into bark   Breaking Struggling To Catch Breath   A World Broken By Sin   Brokenness Gone Wind Pushing Dysfunction Everwhere   Have Mercy…

bROKeNESs AMPLIfied

Do you sometimes feel like when you are together all as a family that you are lonely?  That somehow you don’t fit in.  That everyone seems to be against you?  I have been told that I am ‘too sensitive’ sometimes.  Well I can’t help being sensitive.  It is the character that God gave me.  He…

The Reality of Family Gatherings

It has been a while since I have written anything on here that seems of importance.  Well maybe not a while.  Just its been a while since I have actually written something.  Sometimes I include things from years ago on this blog, sometimes it is more recent, and sometimes its something I have written in…

Crowded and Lonely

 I wrote this poem about 8 years ago. Though its boiling hot in the summer. I feel crowded and lonely all at once. I feel like i am looking through the looking glass and merely a bystander rather than a participant. But i am both: crowded and lonely. Crowded by family. Lonely cause it’s as…

Constricting One Sided Pain

Joshua 1.9 Have I not commanded you?  Be strong and courageous.  Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go. Pain, and more pain, pain, drowning in pain.  Throbbing pain.  Dull pain.  Stabbing pain.  Severe aching pain as if a knife has landed right…

Teasing Grief

Waves in and out crashing against the hardened shell of a woman lost in a world between cheer and grief toying with her emotions like the wind plays with her hair the glimmer of tears hammering briefly behind her eyes as if ready to let the gushing waterfall of deep woe flow out into the endless rivers…