Trapped in Silence, Seeking Refuge

Trapped in silence.  Trapped in fear.  Trapped. Everywhere i turn i am trapped.  The laughing figures in my sleep are chasing me, chasing me, grabbing me and then i am falling, falling, falling as they take hold of my weak spirit.  My heart pounding against my chest.  My heart going thump thumpy thump against my…

My Mommy is a Survivor

My mommy is a survivor from what i hear, she didnt only lose me, but she lost my sisters too. From heavens door i watch her cry herself to sleep at night and i come still quietly to her and lie in the curve of her arm as shefalls into a troubled slumber. She doesnt understand why I…

Food Escape?

I am wondering I wondered lonely as a cloud I am thinking about food an escape A food escape? Yes an escape To heavens plain Where no pain exists To fill this empty void Stuffed cupboards with junk Resists devils temptation As my wondering mind conquers food

No Small Feat

It is two days before you have been gone from me for 19 long hard months.  19 months of ups and downs. 19 months of heartbreak and so many unshed tears still to go.  The Lord knows how much I miss you sweet baby boy.  Sweet baby boy.  Sweet baby boy of mine.  My little…

Ema Frieda

I was just going through some of the things I wrote towards the end of last year.  And one piece of writing still brings me much joy.  I would like to share it with you.  My friend became pregnant with her baby girl a year after I became pregnant with my little boy.  Her baby was…

Quiet Reflections

As I walked along the road besides busy morning rush hour traffic, I felt blessed that I didn’t have a car and that I didn’t take a bus.  The fresh crisp morning air helped clear my senses.  Although, saying that I would probably have liked it more if I could have walked through the park…

Holy God

Lord, my Father God, Adonai, El Shaddai Mighty saviour Of all nations. Holy holy is our God!   I will surrender My all to you. I will give you my heart. You are my God!   Please let me shelter Underneath your wings. Peace will dwell Within me. Peace will dwell Within me.